My Life, As Told Between (Baby Cakes') Naps

I haven’t written anything beyond a superficial entry in entirely too long.  The Frog’s frequently thoughtful, reflective posts have inspired me to write one (or at least attempt to).  So this is it – a brief look into the state of my life at the moment.

I can’t believe I graduated from law school almost two years ago and have been living and working in Los Angeles for a year and a half now.  I realized recently that I’m growing comfortable in this city.  It almost feels like home.  I’ve made new friends, reconnected with old ones, made career connections and picked up a hobby.  I have an actual apartment and not a dorm, a savings account comprised of more than student loans, a nice office with a great view.  I feel more settled than I have in years, maybe ever.  That restlessly itch to pack up and move somewhere, anywhere has passed and I can see myself here for a few more years.  Maybe indefinitely.  I’m sad but resigned to seeing my friends from northern California infrequently and my friends on the East Coast virtually not at all.  It’s weird – this sense of complacency.  I never imagined I’d feel it in this foreign city when I was an undergraduate at UCLA.  But I do. 

Yes, LA is still brutal in many respects.  The hard water’s still drying out my hair.  The smog still makes me break out.  The air’s still drying out my eyes.  The traffic still drives me crazy.  I still feel fat here.  But I’m adjusting.  Filter for the shower.  Different cleanser and moisturizer.  Drops for my eyes.  Music for the endless hours spent in my car.  Acceptance that while I will never been super thin, I’m thin enough.

There are definitely things I’d like to change about the state of my life, but I don’t think that lingering feeling will ever really go away.  I don’t think it does for anyone.  On the whole, I’m good.  Things are good.  Thanks for asking.  And for reading.     

(I didn’t mean this to be a smug post about how great my life is.  There’s plenty that’s not great.  I just wanted to take a moment to remind myself that overall, I’m happy.  That overall, I shouldn’t let the not so great things get in the way of that.)

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