Lead, Kindly Light

I really miss Pastor Chris, my college pastor. Thank goodness for modern technology, though… I can upload his sermons off the internet and listen to them on my ipod when I go to the gym.

The sermon I listened to this morning was about Gideon and how he laid out the fleece and questioned God and His plan multiple times, even after hearing God’s voice and encountering God in more tangible ways than the average human being.  Even in the face of having actually conversations with God and receiving God’s assurance after reassurance of His plan for Israel, Gideon doubted.

Gideon reminds me of me. Not that I’ve had face-to-face encounters with God, but I most certainly have had ample reason to believe in Him and trust Him because He has delivered me from so many things, and changed my life in powerful ways from childhood until now. And yet … still, the “But God, what if” questions still linger. And I still tug at my Lord’s sleeve and ask, “God, are you sure…?”

Then I saw this cartoon on xkcd (see original here), and …  I shook my head again. My relationship with God is a lot like this sometimes. Good thing God is the Lord of love, and He is so patient with His doubting, fearful, and needy creation.