Lead, Kindly Light

A surreal three-ring circus – now a two-ring circus.

Suddenly I have to think about the things that I really want

and wonder if I really want the things that I think I want

and wonder whether I should want the things I do want

and wonder if there are things that I think I don’t want, that I ought to want.

Or really do want.

How did things get so complex?

One appears good – then misses the boat

Another appears good – and takes over the sails

And then yet another appears – from the long-buried past – and threatens to up-end everything.

I pray, and get muddled answers.

Clarity – be clear!

I’m tired, and I’m confused.