{"id":3204,"date":"2022-04-01T09:09:12","date_gmt":"2022-04-01T14:09:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.harvard.edu\/sulaymanibnqiddees\/?p=3204"},"modified":"2022-05-17T15:56:10","modified_gmt":"2022-05-17T20:56:10","slug":"i-am-the-smoke-of-a-blown-out-candle","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/sulaymanibnqiddees\/2022\/04\/01\/i-am-the-smoke-of-a-blown-out-candle\/","title":{"rendered":"I am the smoke of a blown out candle"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Another beautiful death poem, so good it deserves its own post<\/p>\n<p><span class=\"embed-youtube\" style=\"text-align:center; display: block;\"><iframe loading=\"lazy\" class=\"youtube-player\" width=\"584\" height=\"329\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/sqBm7QR34lc?version=3&#038;rel=1&#038;showsearch=0&#038;showinfo=1&#038;iv_load_policy=1&#038;fs=1&#038;hl=en-US&#038;autohide=2&#038;wmode=transparent\" allowfullscreen=\"true\" style=\"border:0;\" sandbox=\"allow-scripts allow-same-origin allow-popups allow-presentation allow-popups-to-escape-sandbox\"><\/iframe><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Poetry by Ali Akbar Natiq, sung by Ustad Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"text-decoration: underline\"><strong>Translation by A. Changezi:<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<div dir=\"auto\">I am the smoke of a blown out candle, returning to my source<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">My heart&#8217;s desires erased, I now efface my existence<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">Last night, your lost remembrance came into my heart<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">Like the silent arrival of spring in the wilderness<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">Like the soft movement of the morning breeze in the desert<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">Like an ailing man finding stillness, without a reason<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">How You have changed, like the times<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">Whenever we have met, as if for the first time<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">Should I call it your cruelty &#8211; or your favor, this?<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">That even grief comes to me like a precious souvenir<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">When the fires of sorrow were stoked in the heart<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">We cried the way water bursts from the sky<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">What offerings could we have made to your Beauty?<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">There is only this one life, received like charity<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">I am the smoke of a blown out candle, returning to my source<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">My heart&#8217;s desires erased, I now efface my existence<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">Solely to see Your face, I bring forth images of idols<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">That I may collect their various splendours, into a likeness of You<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">I have hidden myself in a shroud, so trouble Yourself not with concealment<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">In creating a cloak for myself, it is your Veil that I lift<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">There, You have already departed home &#8211; here, my breath is departing<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">Lord, what is this calamity? You approach just as I am leaving<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">Love is man&#8217;s nature &#8211; where is the possibility of abandoning it?<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">The more I try to forget, the more You are present in my remembrance<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">&#8220;Here I am&#8221; on every tongue, on every breath &#8211; my brow in prostration at every step<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\">You travel to the home of idols, Naatiq, as if you were journeying to the House of God<\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><\/div>\n<div dir=\"auto\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/blogs.harvard.edu\/sulaymanibnqiddees\/files\/2022\/04\/persianmincandle.jpeg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"3205\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/sulaymanibnqiddees\/2022\/04\/01\/i-am-the-smoke-of-a-blown-out-candle\/persianmincandle\/\" 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