I’m responsibility-phobic. I really think I am.<\/p>\n
I’ve always has suspicions. And my ex, Matt, used to tell me all the time that I could be making so much more money if I’d just assert myself and take on jobs with responsibilities. He thought I had it in me to take charge and manage something. Randy has said similar things (that I could make more outside of Harvard or in a different, more senior, job at Harvard).<\/p>\n
That’s all probably true. But I like Harvard. I like what I do at Harvard. I like my boss. And, to be quite honest, in my old age I don’t think I’m as capable as I once was as a young whipper-snapper to expense all of the energy to work my way up the corporate (or academic) ladder. I don’t want to work 60+ hours per week like Randy. I don’t want to be responsible for 7AM conference calls or 9PM conference calls…multiple times per week.<\/p>\n
And I think that’s also why I’m not falling in love with my scooter. Riding the subway (and\/or bus) means no responsibility except showing up and paying the fare. I can do that! But riding the scooter requires ownership. It requires paying attention to what I’m doing and where I’m going (avoiding pot holes, pedestrians, car doors opening). I have to worry about finding an accessible spot in the bike rack for such a large beast. I have to worry about theft.<\/p>\n
To be honest, it consumes me. Yeah, my commute gets cut by more than half as a result of the scooter. And it gives me control of my schedule (I can leave when I want and not rely on a bus schedule). But I’m not sure I want that control!<\/p>\n
…or if I’m capable of such a responsibility!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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