{"id":156,"date":"2005-07-07T06:55:41","date_gmt":"2005-07-07T10:55:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/2005\/07\/07\/true-confessions-of-a-hungry-mind\/"},"modified":"2005-07-07T06:55:41","modified_gmt":"2005-07-07T10:55:41","slug":"true-confessions-of-a-hungry-mind","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/2005\/07\/07\/true-confessions-of-a-hungry-mind\/","title":{"rendered":"True  Confessions of a Hungry Mind"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a name='a930'><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Ok, that&#8217;s quite enough contemplation and open mourning.&nbsp; If your<br \/>\nlast name ends&nbsp; in A-G, I&#8217;ve already gotten to you.&nbsp; The site<br \/>\ncolour will be back to nourmal soon, once I finish a few pressing<br \/>\nduties for the <a href=\"http:\/\/wikimania.wikimedia.org\">Wikimania <\/a><a href=\"http:\/\/wikimania.wikimedia.org\/wiki\/Speakers\">Programme<\/a>.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>Let me take a break from meta-communication for a moment; I have something to confess.&nbsp; I am a <span style=\"font-weight: bold;\">binge eater<\/span>.&nbsp; Not what you first think of when you imagine &#8220;binging&#8221; &#8212; there is no <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">purging <\/span>involved; and minimal <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">compulsion <\/span>&#8212;<br \/>\nbut I will eat staggering quantities of food at a time.&nbsp; When I am<br \/>\ndeeply involved with some project or invention, or doing many things at<br \/>\nonce, I sometimes actively avoid eating.&nbsp; It isn&#8217;t so much a<br \/>\nmatter of forgetting; the first few regular meals that pass by are<br \/>\ncertainly noticed.&nbsp; But eating is a very direct and physical<br \/>\ndistraction.&nbsp; It is much harder to control one&#8217;s own <span style=\"font-weight: bold;\">sleep schedule<\/span><br \/>\non a full stomach, and the simple process of choosing, making, and<br \/>\ncleaning up a meal is a good half-hour&#8217;s interruption.&nbsp; And after<br \/>\nten years, I am still astonished at how much clearer, faster, and<br \/>\ndeeper <span style=\"font-weight: bold;\">free-association<\/span> is on a long-empty stomach.<\/p>\n<p>This morning for instance, after three days of subsiding on the<br \/>\noccasional piece of chocolate (here I would refer to the longevity<br \/>\nrecommendations of a famous pair of<span style=\"font-weight: bold;\"> nonagenarian sisters<\/span> from the US, but cannot find their fifteen minutes of fame; the Fortean Times suggests &#8220;<span style=\"font-style: italic;\">avoid alcohol, eat good vegetables, and never, never get married to no skinny woman<\/span>&#8221; &#8212; thus Jackson Pollard, 124, from their<span style=\"font-weight: bold;\"> <\/span><a href=\"http:\/\/www.caderbooks.com\/deathpie.html\"><span>Amazing Lives and Astonishing Deaths<\/span><\/a>),<br \/>\nI polished off a two-pound lasagna, two pounds of vegetables, three<br \/>\nsmall pots of yoghurt and a few cans of soda.&nbsp; Plus the last<br \/>\nquarter pound of chocolate.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>This wasn&#8217;t the limit of my appetite, mind you; it&#8217;s<br \/>\njust what was at hand.&nbsp; As I write this, having easily doubled the<br \/>\nrest of the week&#8217;s food intake <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">before breakfast<\/span>, I am<br \/>\nrather longing for a<br \/>\njuicy <span style=\"font-weight: bold;\">yam<\/span> or three. <\/p>\n<div style=\"text-align: center;\">~ ~ ~\n<\/div>\n<p>\nReflecting on this, am reminded of the endless meals of distant times and places&#8230; and of That French Restaurant in <span style=\"font-weight: bold;\">Lake Placid<\/span>,<br \/>\nat the back of a blues club, with the inevitable classical piano player<br \/>\nand, for those so inclined, a proper five-course meal, where by <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">proper<\/span><br \/>\nI mean &#8220;incomparably filling.&#8221;&nbsp;&nbsp; A full meal there might run<br \/>\nto three hours, 8000 Calories and a two-notch loosening of the<br \/>\nbelt.&nbsp; My father raised me on meals like that once in a blue moon,<br \/>\nso perhaps that&#8217;s where I picked up the habit. For years I made sure<br \/>\nwhen dining (and <span style=\"font-weight: bold;\">ordering<\/span>) not to leave any food left over.<\/p>\n<p>Alas, I have not quite maintained my former <span style=\"font-weight: bold;\">standards<\/span>.&nbsp; Not two weeks ago I was at the <span style=\"font-weight: bold;\">South Street Diner<\/span> with J #1, and we both got their mixed grill (<span style=\"font-style: italic;\">fantastic<\/span>),<br \/>\nwell over a pound of grilled meat and fish, with a couple of<br \/>\nsides.&nbsp; It was with a guilty conscience I handed over my last few<br \/>\nbites at the end of the meal.<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-style: italic;\"><span style=\"font-weight: bold;\">Update:<\/span><\/span>&nbsp; <span style=\"font-style: italic;\">Six hours later, I am definitely hungry for a full lunch.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ok, that&#8217;s quite enough contemplation and open mourning.&nbsp; If your last name ends&nbsp; in A-G, I&#8217;ve already gotten to you.&nbsp; The site colour will be back to nourmal soon, once I finish a few pressing duties for the Wikimania Programme.&nbsp; Let me take a break from meta-communication for a moment; I have something to confess.&nbsp; [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":135,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[217],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-156","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-sj"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/156","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/135"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=156"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/156\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=156"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=156"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/longestnow\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=156"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}