{"id":4131,"date":"2005-10-04T23:25:33","date_gmt":"2005-10-05T03:25:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/formerlyknownas\/2005\/10\/04\/the-life-of-ivan-illy-esq\/"},"modified":"2011-08-05T14:54:32","modified_gmt":"2011-08-05T18:54:32","slug":"the-life-of-ivan-illy-esq","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/archive.blogs.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/2005\/10\/04\/the-life-of-ivan-illy-esq\/","title":{"rendered":"The LIFE of IVAN ILLY, Esq"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a name='a5014'><\/a><\/p>\n<blockquote><p>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><A href=\"http:\/\/www.amazon.com\/exec\/obidos\/tg\/detail\/-\/0553210351\/qid=1124074867\/sr=1-19\/ref=sr_1_19\/102-9892500-1392132?v=glance&amp;s=books\"><EM><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">The Death of Ivan Ilyich<\/FONT><\/EM><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"> is <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/www.classicallibrary.org\/tolstoy\/index.htm\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" color=\"#000000\" size=\"2\">Leo Tolstoy<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&#8216;s most famous short story.&nbsp; Written <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">in 1886, the 60-page&nbsp;novella is considered a classic portrayal of dying and&nbsp;<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">suffering.&nbsp;&nbsp; However, this story of a respected judge, who becomes ill <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">and dies at <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">age forty-five, is much more.&nbsp; It is a cautionary tale about the <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">choices we make,&nbsp;<\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">and don&#8217;t make,&nbsp;in&nbsp;our lives, with a message that needs <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">to be heard (more than <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">once) and seriously considered by everyone, including <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">members of our <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">often &#8220;<\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/2003\/09\/27#a296\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" color=\"#000000\" size=\"2\">unhappy and unhealthy<\/FONT><\/A><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">&#8221; <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">legal profession,&nbsp;and by&nbsp;those <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">contemplating <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">a <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">legal career.&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/media-cyber.law.harvard.edu\/blogs\/static\/ethicalesq\/LeoTolstoy.gif\" alt=\"TolstoyLeo\" \/>&nbsp; Tolstoy opens the story with the line: &#8220;Ivan Ilych&#8217;s life had been <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">most <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">simple and most ordinary and therefore most terrible.&#8221;&nbsp; One critic <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><A href=\"http:\/\/endeavor.med.nyu.edu\/lit-med\/lit-med-db\/webdocs\/webdescrips\/tolstoy352-des-.html\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" color=\"#000000\" size=\"2\">explained<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">:<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&#8220;Ivan, the protagonist, followed a well-traveled road, adhering to <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&#8216;comme il faut&#8217; (as is expected) or doing what one was supposed <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">to do in career matters, selection of clothes, choosing a wife, raising <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"+0\"><FONT color=\"black\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">children.&#8221; <\/FONT><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">In keeping with our ongoing &#8220;self-assessment&#8221; campaign [<EM>e.g.<\/EM>, see <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/2005\/08\/16#a4522\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">here<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"> <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">(aimed <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">at 1L&#8217;s; <\/FONT><\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/2005\/09\/04#a4680\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">here<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"> (aimed at all law students and recent grads); <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/stories\/storyReader$3679\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">here<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"> <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">(<EM>Homework<\/EM> for <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">those considering law school); and <\/FONT><\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/2003\/12\/14#a382\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">here<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"> (for practicing <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">lawyers)], you can consider this <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">another plea to take stock of <EM>your own<\/EM> <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">values <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">and priorities (not those of your <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">parents, classmates, or the <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">profession <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">or society in general), and then choose <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">to be true to yourself.<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">Reading or re-reading <EM>The Death of Ivan Ilyich<\/EM> should get you in the&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">mood to&nbsp;<\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">stop&nbsp;procrastinating and start finding out who you really are.&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">Indeed, now that <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/www.classicallibrary.org\/index.htm\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" color=\"#000000\" size=\"2\">The Classical Library<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"> has posted a convenient, <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\"><A href=\"http:\/\/www.classicallibrary.org\/tolstoy\/ivan\/\"><FONT size=\"2\">free, online version<\/FONT><\/A><FONT size=\"2\"> of the short novel, <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">you are out of excuses.<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &#8220;booksShelvedN&#8221;<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">Please, let me assure you, this assignment won&#8217;t be torture.&nbsp; Tolstoy&#8217;s <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">skillful depiction of<\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">&nbsp;<\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">the <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">desperation and shallowness (and spousal <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">aggravation)&nbsp;in <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">Ilyich&#8217;s <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">life <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">makes for <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">great reading.&nbsp; Lawyer&#8217;s will enjoy <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">small touches, <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">such as <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">the judge&#8217;s realization, when he first&nbsp;goes to <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">a doctor for his <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">stomach <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">pain that &#8220;It was all just as it was in the law <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">courts. The doctor <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">put on <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">just the same air towards him as he himself <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">put on towards an <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">accused <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">person.&#8221;&nbsp; Later, when he&#8217;s on his deathbed <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">and the doctor&nbsp;puts <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">Ilyich <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">through <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">a complicated examination, the <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">narrator tells us:<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&#8220;Ivan Ilych knows quite well and definitely that all this is <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">nonsense and pure deception, but when the doctor, getting <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">down on his knee, leans over him, putting his ear first higher <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">then lower, and performs various gymnastic movements over <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">him with a significant expression on his face, Ivan Ilych submits <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">to it all as he used to submit to the speeches of the lawyers, <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">though he knew very well that they were all lying and why they <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">were lying.&#8221;<\/FONT><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">Ivan Ilyich&#8217;s desperate life &#8212; always doing what he considered his <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&#8220;duty&#8221; and&nbsp;seeking &#8220;orderliness&#8221;&nbsp;&#8212; may seem far too drastic to be<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">relevant to your own.&nbsp;&nbsp; But, there is a good bit of <EM>Ivan Illy, Esq<\/EM>., in <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">every lawyer caught up in the status to be gained from &#8220;success&#8221; in <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">the legal profession; in the fear of disappointing parents or spouse by <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">choosing less-travelled paths; or in the endless putting off self-assess-<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">ment and <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">assertion, due to the attractions&nbsp;or necessity&nbsp;of ever<\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">increas-<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">ing <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">income.&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">I&#8217;ll leave you with&nbsp;a few&nbsp;(of the many) passages&nbsp;that may <\/FONT><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">ring true to <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">you, and&nbsp;hopefully <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\">make you <A href=\"http:\/\/www.classicallibrary.org\/tolstoy\/ivan\/\">click through<\/A> to Ilyich&#8217;s tale right <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">now <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">and <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">bookmark it.&nbsp; (All emphases added.&nbsp; The full story contains much <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">more character and <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">ambiance development for your literary enjoyment.)<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/media-cyber.law.harvard.edu\/blogs\/static\/ethicalesq\/IlyichCover.jpg\" alt=\"IlyichCover\" \/>&nbsp;&nbsp;<EM>From his early years:<\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">Even when he was at the School of Law he was just what <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">he remained for the rest of his life: a capable, cheerful, <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">good-natured, and sociable man, though strict in the <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">fulfillment of what he considered to be his duty: and <EM>he <\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>considered his duty to be what was so considered by those <\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>in authority<\/EM>. Neither as a boy nor as a man was he a toady, <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">but from early youth was by nature attracted to people of <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">high station as a fly is drawn to the light, assimilating their <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">ways and views of life and establishing friendly relations <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">with them. All the enthusiasms of childhood and youth passed <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">without leaving much trace on him; he succumbed to sensuality, <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">to vanity, and latterly among the highest classes to liberalism, <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">but always within limits which his instinct unfailingly indicated <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">to him as correct.<\/FONT><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">At school he had done things which had formerly seemed to <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">him very horrid and made him feel disgusted with himself when <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">he did them; but when later on he saw that such actions were <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">done by people of good position and that they did not regard <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">them as wrong, he was able not exactly to regard them as right, <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">but to forget about them entirely or not be at all troubled at <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">remembering them.<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/FONT><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT size=\"2\"><EM>After 17 years practicing law:<\/EM> <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">This was in 1880, the hardest year of Ivan Ilych&#8217;s life. It was <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">then that it became evident on the one hand that his salary <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">was insufficient for them to live on, and on the other that he <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">had been forgotten, and not only this, but that what was for <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">him the greatest and most cruel injustice appeared to others <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">a quite ordinary occurrence. Even his father did not consider <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">it his duty to help him. Ivan Ilych felt himself abandoned by <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">everyone, and that they regarded his position with a salary <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">of 3,500 rubles as quite normal and even fortunate. He alone <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">knew that with the consciousness of the injustices done him, <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">with his wife&#8217;s incessant nagging, and with the debts he had <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">contracted by living beyond his means,his position was far <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">from normal.&nbsp; <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&#8220;booksShelved&#8221;<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">Next day, despite many protests from his wife and her brother, <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>he started for Petersburg with the sole object of obtaining a <\/EM><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>post with a salary of five thousand rubles a year<\/EM>. He was no <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">longer bent on any particular department, or tendency, or <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">kind of activity. All he now wanted was an appointment to <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">another post with a salary of five thousand rubles, either in <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">the administration, in the banks, with the railways in one of <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">the Empress Marya&#8217;s Institutions, or even in the customs &#x2014; <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">but it had to carry with it a salary of five thousand rubles and <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">be in a ministry other than that in which they had failed to <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">appreciate him.<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>After the seriousness of his illness (probably stomach cancer)<\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>became clear and Ilyich was in constant pain:<\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">And in imagination he began to recall the best moments of <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">his pleasant life. But strange to say none of those best <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">moments of his pleasant life now seemed at all what they <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">had then seemed &#x2014; none of them except the first recollections <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">of childhood. There, in childhood, there had been something <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">really pleasant with which it would be possible to live if it could <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">return.&nbsp;&nbsp; But the child who had experienced that happiness <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">existed no longer, it was like a reminiscence of somebody else.&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">As soon as the period began which had produced the present <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">Ivan Ilych, all that had then seemed joys now melted before his <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">sight and turned into something trivial and often nasty.&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>And the further he departed from childhood and the nearer he <\/EM><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>came to the present the more worthless and doubtful were the <\/EM><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>joys. This began with the School of Law.<\/EM> A little that was really <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">good was still found there &#x2014; there was light-heartedness, <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">friendship, and hope. But in the upper classes there had already <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">been fewer of such good moments. Then during the first years of <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">his official career, when he was in the service of the governor, some <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">pleasant moments again occurred: they were the memories of love <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">for a woman. Then all became confused and there was still less of <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">what was good; later on again there was still less that was good, <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">and the further he went the less there was. <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/media-cyber.law.harvard.edu\/blogs\/static\/ethicalesq\/LeoTolstoy.gif\" alt=\"TolstoyLeo\" \/><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">. . . &nbsp;then that deadly official life and those preoccupations about <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">money, a year of it, and two, and ten, and twenty, and always the <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">same thing. And the longer it lasted the more deadly it became. <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>&#8220;It is as if I had been going downhill while I imagined I was going <\/EM><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>up.<\/EM> And that is really what it was. I was going up in public opinion, <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">but to the same extent life was ebbing away from me. And now it <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">is all done and there is only death. <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&#8220;Then what does it mean? Why? It can&#8217;t be that life is so senseless <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">and horrible. But if it really has been so horrible and senseless, <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">why must I die and die in agony? There is something wrong!<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>&#8220;Maybe I did not live as I ought to have done,&#8221; it suddenly occurred <\/EM><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>to him. &#8220;But how could that be, when I did everything properly?&#8221;<\/EM> <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">he replied, and immediately dismissed from his mind this, the sole <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">solution of all the riddles of life and death, as something quite <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">impossible.<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">. . . Why, and for what purpose, is there all this horror? But however <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">much he pondered he found no answer. And whenever the thought<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">occurred to him, as it often did, that it all resulted from his not having <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">lived as he ought to have done, he at once recalled the correctness <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">of his whole life and dismissed so strange an idea.<\/FONT><\/DIV><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT size=\"2\"><EM><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/media-cyber.law.harvard.edu\/blogs\/static\/ethicalesq\/IlyichCoverN.gif\" alt=\"IlyichCoverN\" \/>&nbsp; When the death of Ivan Ilyich was very near:<\/EM>&nbsp; <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">It occurred to him that what had appeared perfectly impossible <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">before, namely that he had not spent his life as he should have <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">done, might after all be true. <EM>It occurred to him that his scarcely <\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>perceptible attempts to struggle against what was considered <\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>good by the most highly placed people, those scarcely noticeable <\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>impulses which he had immediately suppressed, might have been <\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>the real thing, and all the rest false.<\/EM> And his professional duties <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">and the whole arrangement of his life and of his family, and all his <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">social and official interests, might all have been false. He tried to <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">defend all those things to himself and suddenly felt the weakness <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">of what he was defending. There was nothing to defend. [emphasis<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">added]<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><EM>someone else&#8217;s affair<BR>you think&#8230;<BR>lanterns for the dead<\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><SPAN><SPAN>&nbsp;<br \/>\n<DIV>&nbsp;&nbsp; <A href=\"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/stories\/storyReader$3522\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" color=\"red\" size=\"1\">Kobayashi Issa<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"1\">&nbsp;<\/FONT> <\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" align=\"left\"><FONT face=\"Times New Roman,Times,Serif\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"1\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;translated by <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/www.haikuguy.com\/\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" color=\"#000000\" size=\"1\">David G. Lanoue<\/FONT><\/A><FONT size=\"2\">&nbsp;<\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT face=\"Times New Roman,Times,Serif\" size=\"1\">&nbsp;<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" align=\"left\"><FONT face=\"Times New Roman\" size=\"1\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><\/SPAN><\/SPAN><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">In the very near future, I will be set up a Career Choices\/Changes <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">Page, <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">listing resources that can help in the process of self-assessment. <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">If you <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">feel the urge to start the process of getting to know yourself and <\/FONT><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">your <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">career options better, you can find links to relevant materials in&nbsp;<\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/2005\/08\/16#a4522\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">this<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\"> post <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">and <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/2005\/09\/04#a4680\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">that<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\"> post.&nbsp;<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/cyber.law.harvard.edu\/blogs\/static\/ethicalesq\/tinycheck.gif\" alt=\"tiny check\" \/>&nbsp; If you&#8217;d like to try a book that helped me <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">think about and act on taking charge of my own life and <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">emotions, <\/FONT><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\">see <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/www.amazon.com\/exec\/obidos\/tg\/detail\/-\/0943233763\/qid=1128437082\/sr=1-1\/ref=sr_1_1\/102-9892500-1392132?v=glance&amp;s=books\"><EM><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\">A Conscious Life<\/FONT><\/EM><\/A><EM><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\">: Cultivating the Seven <\/FONT><\/EM><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><EM><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\">Qualities <\/FONT><\/EM><\/FONT><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\"><EM>of Authentic Adulthood,<\/EM> by Fran Cox, Louis <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\">Cox (Conari <\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\">Press, 1995) (available<FONT color=\"black\"> <\/FONT><\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/www.amazon.com\/gp\/product\/offer-listing\/0943233763\/ref=dp_olp_2\/\/102-9892500-1392132?condition=all\"><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" color=\"black\" size=\"2\">used<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Geneva,Arial,Sans-Serif\" size=\"2\"> for cheap)<\/FONT><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><SPAN>&nbsp;<br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">his quiet funeral&nbsp;&#8212;<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">a man who did<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">most of the talking<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT color=\"black\" size=\"1\"><A href=\"http:\/\/blogs.law.harvard.edu\/ethicalesq\/stories\/storyReader$3723\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" color=\"black\"><STRONG>barry george<\/STRONG><\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\"> <\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"1\">from <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/www.hsa-haiku.org\/frogpond.htm\"><EM><FONT face=\"Arial\" color=\"black\" size=\"1\"><STRONG>frogpond<\/STRONG><\/FONT><\/EM><\/A><FONT size=\"1\"><FONT face=\"Arial\"><FONT color=\"black\"> <\/FONT>XXVIII: 1<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"1\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"1\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"1\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"1\"><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">sweltering twilight<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; a waft of cool air<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">from the graveyard<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV><FONT size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" style=\"MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\"><\/FONT>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" style=\"MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">against the tombstone<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" style=\"MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">with the faded name<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" style=\"MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">homeless man rests<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" style=\"MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT size=\"1\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <SPAN>&nbsp;<SPAN><A href=\"http:\/\/www.worldhaikureview.org\/1-3\/whchaikuforum_gsbio.shtml\"><FONT color=\"#000000\" size=\"1\"><STRONG>George Swede<\/STRONG><\/FONT><\/A><\/SPAN>&nbsp; <\/SPAN><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" style=\"MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px\"><SPAN><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT size=\"1\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; from <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/www.amazon.com\/exec\/obidos\/tg\/detail\/-\/0913719994\/qid=1089812810\/sr=8-1\/ref=sr_8_xs_ap_i1_xgl14\/102-4810311-4254502?v=glance&amp;s=books&amp;n=507846\"><FONT size=\"1\"><FONT color=\"#000000\"><STRONG><FONT face=\"Arial\"><EM>Almost<\/EM> <EM>Unseen<\/EM><\/FONT><\/STRONG><\/FONT><\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\">&nbsp;<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/FONT><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"1\">(2000)<\/FONT><\/SPAN><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" style=\"MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px\"><SPAN><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"1\"><\/FONT><\/SPAN>&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\" style=\"MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px\"><SPAN><SPAN><SPAN>&nbsp;<br \/>\n<BLOCKQUOTE><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT size=\"2\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">funeral procession . . .<\/FONT><\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">snowflakes blowing<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"2\">into the headlights<\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\">&nbsp;<\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <A href=\"http:\/\/faculty.millikin.edu\/~rbrooks.hum.faculty.mu\/\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" color=\"#000000\" size=\"1\">Randy Brooks<\/FONT><\/A><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"1\"> <\/FONT><\/DIV><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" size=\"1\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; from <\/FONT><A href=\"http:\/\/www.worldhaikureview.org\/1-3\/vintagehaiku_rbrooks.shtml\"><FONT face=\"Arial\" color=\"#000000\" size=\"1\">Vintage Haiku of Randy Brooks&nbsp;<\/FONT><\/A><\/SPAN><\/SPAN><\/SPAN><\/FONT><\/SPAN><FONT face=\"Arial\"><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/DIV><\/BLOCKQUOTE><\/FONT><br \/>\n<DIV dir=\"ltr\"><FONT face=\"Arial\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<FONT size=\"2\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; 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